"They're here now and then they're gone, where they at? I don't know. That kind of friend, I gotta let go. A super friend. A super friend. I got me a super friend," Mary Mary - The Sound
I am losing all my friends. I don't know if I'm going crazy or fighting a spiritual warfare. Am I unforgiving? Am I too sensitive? What am I supposed to do Lord? Proverbs 18:24 says, A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
I value my everlasting firendship but I have to believe that God cares for me and the relationships I build and sustain on earth. I have a friend, Kharla, that I met a few months after moving to Atlanta in 2005. She introduced me to my church and invited me into her life, friends, family, favorite restaurants, men, and clubs. Over the years it has seemed as if I am more of a friend to her than she is to me. I regularly attend her events and support her in times of need. If ever I call Kharla she is available to listen and advise but she never shows up to any of the events I invite her to. I recently realized she doesn't even call to chit-chat/ say hello/ check on me. It's a little hurtful because for 5 years I've considered her a friend.
I'm honestly conflicted about what to do. Recognizing that we are merely associates and not reciprocal friends hurts. Though Jesus is the only one I can really trust to care for and do the right thing, Kharla told me, "not everyone is out to hurt you intentiaonlly." I have had issues with trusting people because they let me down but am I alienatig my friends by not being understaning of their reasons for hurting me? As I meditate and pray on my relationships and my thoughts I will keep you postd on God's instruction.
I love the Lord he heard my cry!
Jonique'
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